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दो कदम तुम भी चलो….Day IV

दो कदम तुम
भी चलो
दो कदम हम
भी चलें ।।……
“Hello”
“Hello, how are you Ishi?” my Mom was on the line.
“Fine Mumma…how are you all?” I inquired.
“We are ok, are u overworked…you took long to pick
the call today….is u ok beta.” She asked anxiously.
“No…Mumma…nothing of that sort…Ur beta is
absolutely fine, no need to worry….today is second Saturday off…will sleep
longer.”
“Ok…will talk later…take rest…on working days you
don’t get time to sleep late, bye? Love u”
“Bye bye…love u dear.” hung up the line.
It was 6:15 am & I could sleep longer so I didn’t come
out of bed….I loved sleeping in the morning hours…the morning cool breeze
soothed me from within but on working days, it wasn’t possible to enjoy the
cool cool breeze.
Again ring on the mobile broke my deep slumber, I hurriedly
woke up. Aww…It was 10:30 am…
“Hello”
“Hi Dear Ishi…” Ishmeet was on the line
“Hi Ishmeet…hope all is fine….calling so
early” I said.
“Early. It’s not early early bird, its 10:30. Are you day
dreaming? He said teasingly.
“Yeah…yeah but today I have off so I don’t care to
check time. I was just relaxing. No tension in weekends.” I replied
coolly, I didn’t wish him to know that I was sleeping till this time of the
hour so tried to pacify.
“Are we meeting today?” Ishmeet asked bluntly.
“Not yet decided, did we discuss yesterday to meet? I
don’t think so, we did. Let me think over?” I said been sarcastic, testing
his patience, I knew it wasn’t fair from my part but we girls are like that. We
run after mirage but doubt the real people & I was doing the same thing &
was enjoying the thrill.
“No thinking over, you have thought a lot, just listen
you are coming to Barista CP by 4 pm today, no excuses…Bye.” said
disconnecting the line.
I was taken aback, how can he ask me so confidently or
command me within such a short span of time & be sure that I will be
there…
Many queries emerged abruptly…
Why was he so adamant to meet me?
Was he trying to be dominant?
I had a habit of reasoning and I tried to reconcile our conversations
& concluded that Ishmeet was a nice guy and because I was taking lot of
time in deciding, he took this way & he didn’t wish to lose the opportunity
as in working days, it wasn’t possible to meet with ease.
I too wished to meet him & today I was already late in
finishing my daily chores. I hurriedly finished my daily chores of cleaning,
washing and home decor & today I needed ample time to groom myself to meet
my new found friend who was dear to me & I desired to look special today.
My wardrobe was full of dresses but couldn’t make my mind
what to wear for the evening…in this quorum of deciding I took more than an
hour today…my expertise of taking decision in haste seemed to disappear
today…I pinched several times whether I was the same Ishi who is famous for
taking hasty decisions…where I had landed today….in the World of Dreams
Chasing My Prince of My Dream.
Throughout the day off & on, I was checking my mobile
for call or Sms…But no call or Sms till I left my place for Barista Cafe. I
didn’t take Metro route instead I took a taxi to reach the fixed destination.
I reached Barista on time but no sign of Ishmeet. I searched
hither & thither and then took a seat inside. I felt bit low, was he trying
to fool me & many untoward thoughts cropped up but still deep inside there
was a feeling that he will come…with the conviction he had said , he won’t
let me down.
तुम मिले तो लम्हे थम गये, तुम मिले तो सारे गम गये, तुम मिले तो मुस्कुराना आ गया…
तुम मिले तो जादू छा गया, तुम मिले तो जीना आ गया, तुम मिले तो मैने पाया है खुदा” 



music
playing in the background soothed the turmoil inside me…
Suddenly, I felt a tap on my shoulder….sending shivers
throughout with this unfamiliar touch. I turned my head back…there Ishmeet
was standing with a broad smile spread across his face….a tall figure was
standing in front of me clad in a T-shirt & Denims.
“Hi Ishi.You are looking awesome” He squeezed
my hands softly, a touch of him just made me shiver, I was speechless. The way his gaze
followed…I was merely dumb.



To be continued….

© Ila Varma 2015
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LOVE LOVE LOVE !!!

 

 

Immature love, says, “I love you because I need you.’


                      Mature love says, ‘I need you because I love you.’

                                                                                          

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दो कदम तुम भी चलो….Day III

दो कदम तुम भी चलो

दो कदम हम भी चलें ।।……
In just two unplanned meetings, we couldn’t
judge each other’s feelings but there was a charm in his demeanor which had
caught my attention & I eagerly waited for him. Why, l didn’t know…
I had noted down his number & wished to
talk but something was stopping me from taking the initiative. Ishmeet didn’t have
my number so he couldn’t reach me & I had the no.but certain inhibitions
were not letting me to step forward…but I had to take the way out. After much
brooding, an idea struck me.

I text ed my no.& soon my mobile rang displaying his number…my heart
beats raced faster & felt goose bumps all over.

“Hello”
“Hello…hi Ishi. How are you dear?”…he said
“Fine & you…” I replied
“Took long to give a call, seem busy. I
was desperately waiting for your call. I shared my no. but you didn’t …you
take time…u believes in EMI’S…what u say…” He laughed.
was it sarcasm or mocking or just a
tease…tough to make out but the words which he addressed was taken in note by
me, “dear and desperate”

“Is he really interested in me.”…this haunted me but was very early
to conclude & I was in no mood to hurry…better to wait. But this mind or
conscience says but the matter of heart is different…it is not decisive or
logical…doesn’t know to reason…just knows to beat making you
impatient…&basket of expectations….inflating…keeping you on
toes…only knows to take chances…the best part of losing your heart is it
keeps you happy to the core and adds glow to your persona which is not missed
by onlookers….so this is the first step of love…deep crush which crushes
your soul emitting fragrance of sweet puppy love.

“Hmmm…You can say so…b’coz I acted the way
but Ishmeet…first time it was intentional but I missed it in second chance
when we met by chance…” I replied softly unlike my persona who is a
dominant self but this leap was taken by heart.
“Can we meet” He asked 
“We have already met” I said
mockingly…now it was my chance.
“We met accidentally but now I want to
meet you…planned one…or can I put it this way…are you coming with me on a
date…I feel that sounds better” He said in a calm tone.
I wished but I wished to keep him
waiting…testing him…we girls love to keep the boys waiting…this wasn’t me;
this was my false pride to test his eagerness.
“Ok, I will see” I replied in a cold
tone.
 
He asked me to join on hangout to chat…I feel my cold
response put him off over mobile.
I never liked chatting on Fb or Hangout but my
eagerness drove me. In late evenings, we talked on hangout…and there were
more exchanges…more of leg pulling…kidding…sometimes I felt like a child
has emerged in me…enjoying the moments childishly.
 
He ran a Dance Institute in Delhi….it was a
prominent one…and he was more conversant in Salsa…and I was interested in
fine arts & I didn’t want to waste this opportunity which had come to me
uninvited & it would be a better way to meet each other to understand…I had
not conveyed to Ishmeet but it was there in back of my mind…engrossed in his
thoughts when I slept I didn’t know but a ring at 6 am disturbed my slumber
“Hello!” 
To be continued….

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THE SPECIAL BOND !!!

“One of the best feelings in the world is knowing 
             
               your presence and absence both mean 

                       something to someone.”

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MOON SMILING ON FULL MOON DAY

Captured By Me On Full Moon Night  At Chowpatty , Mumbai

© Ila Varma 2015

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दो कदम तुम भी चलो….Day II

दो कदम तुम
भी चलो
दो कदम हम
भी चलें ।।……

While returning from office, I tried to search Ishmeet at Metro
station or in Metro but couldn’t locate him. His face was revolving in front of
my eyes. I was feeling sorry to have reciprocated rudely. Normally , I’m very
friendly in my circles be it official or personal but still avoid interactions
with strangers, the stories unveiled by the media of the way men treat girls or
women stops one to interact or trust , though all Men or boys are not like that
but how to differentiate, better tread on safe side.

There was something in Ishmeet which had left me restless,
but it was difficult to find about his whereabouts so I left in the hands of
Almighty & if we are destined to meet then certainly one day we
will…& I consoled myself to be in my senses. After finishing my routine
chores, I started for my office, but not like other days, today, I watched
myself in mirror several times taking care of my dress that I wore & my
hairstyle etc.

As I stepped inside Metro, I saw him seated near the window
seat engrossed in a magazine. My heart raced faster & I wanted to shout out
his name to attract his attention but checked myself else I would have been
center of attraction in public…though we boast of our advancements but still
our society is conservative in respect of relationships of boys &
girls…anyhow, I crossed through the crowd inside & reached the place he
was seated…but I couldn’t muster the courage to greet him or say anything.
Luckily, there was one seat vacant adjacent to him, I managed to get in there
& watched him from the corners of eyes waiting for his initiation but he
didn’t took notice of me, I wasn’t sure whether he has not seen me or
deliberately ignored me. turmoil was unfurling inside me…if today we missed
the opportunity to interact, then I wasn’t sure whether we will meet again or
not…Opportunities comes to avail not to miss.

Metro stopped at Rajiv chowk but I didn’t wish to get down,
I desired to go further & would get down where Ishmeet would…I was
wandering in this thought & found the seat of Ishmeet vacant. He had got
down at Rajiv chowk…frantically I ran & got down from the rear door to my
destined station.

The day was hot, temperature nearing 40 degrees at 10
am  perspiring profusely…I was lucky to
have got down timely else the day would have been more hectic for me….the
anxiousness for this stranger had put me into fix. I seated myself within the
station premises to take rest because I wasn’t feeling well…but my eyes were
still searching the man who had stolen my solace…but couldn’t locate him. I
drank few sips of water from my water bottle & stood to start my way…I
found him standing intercepting my way….I badly wished to confront him but
the way he intercepted my heart stood still & I was shaken assuming
something negative & I wish to cry out….but when our glances met, I was
comforted…

“Hey, Nice to see you again “said Ishmeet coolly

“Hi, me too, Ishi here” I replied

“Cool, I didn’t ask your name, did I? “He said in an amusing
manner
Today, it was my chance to be mute, I sealed my mouth.

“Are you well or something is bothering you!” Ishmeet
inquired.

“I’m fine, just the soaring temperature is taking toll!” I
said

Suddenly I took the note of time; it was ten-thirty, quite
late for office. I started for my office, amazingly Ishmeet followed me.

“So Ishmeet, is your office in this area?”

“No. I am just coming along with you to see you off till
your office as you look a little pale” he said.

I was taken aback by his concern that too for me who was so
rude in first meeting. I kept quiet and passed a smile. As I was about to enter
the office premises,


“Hey, Ishi, note down my no.9186443320…..see you”   Ishmeet
left.

I made a note of his number so the spark was ignited both sides…I felt at ease
all my discomforts vanished in the air & I was feeling light.

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To be continued….
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दो कदम तुम भी चलो….Day I

दो कदम तुम भी चलो
दो कदम हम भी चलें ।।……

Finally,  Ishi boarded the train for Chandigarh for her hometown…Every time she started for her home, she would be overjoyed, but this time it was missing….the break up had filled her with remorse & she didn’t wish to leave the place longing for her love to return..though the chances seemed quite bleak but people live on hope…Even when things go wrong, hope is the only positive thing in life which keeps us alive. She was in trance; the memories of Ishmeet following her.

“Hi, I’m Ishmeet from Delhi !”


“Hello, I am….me too from Delhi!” I did not disclose my name deliberately…he was stranger for me but there was something about his demeanor which didn’t let my eyes off.


“Hey, Your good name?” he inquired


“What’s in a name, a rose is a rose ..” I reciprocated with a smile


“Hmmm ”  said Ishmeet with a broad grin.


He didn’t dare to ask anything., he was offended, his reaction was natural..This was our first meeting while travelling in Delhi Metro. I got down at Rajiv Chowk & headed for my office.This first meeting was the impressive one, there was some spark in the meeting..early to conclude…what it was…but there was something and Ishmeet had caught my attention..he was there with me …there was something in him & I wanted to meet him again…but where will we meet…only glances were exchanged & my outright decline might have hurt him somewhere..I felt now

© By Ila Varma 2015




To be continued….




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My First Expert My Granny

I feel as if the whole episode is of yesterday etched in my memory, intact & fresh…the reminisce of my granny, whom I addressed “IYA”. When I gained senses, I recognized her only, she had not borne me .but she was my everything & I couldn’t live without her for a second…she was my Mother,Guardian, Granny, friend, & all the best relations that I could enjoy…I didn’t even recognize my Mom who had borne me…I slept in Iya’s lap & woke up in her arm…would love her cuddling in her soft arms..which were actually wrinkles but I loved to feel and touch her soft hands & would wrap myself around her neck. She too was much fond of me & pampered me a lot & fulfilled all my wishes, What else could I ask for, I got everything that I demanded.


I saw this world with her eyes & her bed time stories were wonderful which led me into fantasy world and thereafter in peaceful slumber. I learnt to walk by holding her slender fingers which clutched me tight when I missed my steps & took care that I don’t fall & get hurt.


She was my guide, my mentor and helped me to decipher the worldly things, taught me the traditions & culture of our family and raised me inculcating good habits & manners & shaped me such that I could adjust in all circumstances though at times I was reluctant to accept the things but she knew the way of tackling & tackled me such that I agreed with her.


I saw myself in her, in a way my features more or less resembles with her though her features were more sharp.We both confided in each other a lot & shared our secret, laughed on silly jokes and could never imagine life without her.


Years rolled by and she left for the heavenly abode after my marriage. I cried my heart out but still I had to accept the fact of life.We meet to part one day and how hard we try we can’t stop from losing. I lost her physically but the memories of the time spent together are fresh which I cherish till today. These are the valuable treasures of my life.


© By Ila Varma 2015



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DEATH IS INEVITABLE

Death is inevitable but still all fear in spite of knowing the fact that those who are born are going to perish one day, but we don’t accept easily. Life is fraught with challenges best or worse and it tests us to the core,still we love life. The chain of woven relations make us weak to face the fact of life and we try to escape from death.


It will be wonderful, as I believe, if I get a chance to plan my death & my plan works as per my  choice then certainly I will welcome death with open arms & hug happily ever after.
I was married off at an early age & so my life sped fast forward than my other friends. I am in mid forties but most of my responsibilities are over as a Wife, Woman, Lady of the house and as a Mother. By God’s grace, I have secured a roof over my head of course with the kind support of my husband who stood by me in shouldering my responsibilities. My both children are settled in life on professional front and my burning desire is that as soon as I am relieved of the responsibilities, the basic one is left to get the two married than I happily choose death. It is not that I have no desire to live or I want to escape from life but wish to go for peaceful slumber with no hassles.


I wish to go for peaceful slumber after my parents life, it is very difficult for the parents to lose part of themselves in front of their eyes & my inner wish to welcome my daughter-in-laws & see both of them settled. Wishes are unending but in my life the priorities are only two & would consider myself lucky if I get the opportunity to choose after I complete these two. My desires are limited so I believe God will be gracious to bless me with his love & will send his messenger to  welcome me in his kingdom to lead a Life after Death in peace.



© Ila Varma 2015


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POINT OF NO RETURN



She was quite fit & active, full of life & nobody
could ever dream that one day she will leave this world inflicted with the
deadly disease Cancer. The day one is declared to be inflicted with this “C
“one loses half of one’s life & even the near & dear lose hope…It
happened all of a sudden -. She was not feeling well & visited a neighborhood
doctor doubting gastro troubles. The doctor suggested few tests &
ultrasound of the whole abdomen. The tests revealed water retention in abdomen
& the biopsy of the same confirmed malignancy. She was rushed to Vellore
for further investigations & we all family members prayed for her welfare.
Series of investigations confirmed that she was suffering from malignancy of
uterus & doctors advised for an operation to get rid out of it &
thereafter chemotherapy. The doctors made her aware of the after effects of
chemo & operation was successful. She had to undergo series of chemo to
control the infections & she responded to the treatment, which gave her a
ray of hope & we all were positive believing the doomsday is over & our
prayers have been heard.
She was in her early forties with two kids who were in their
primary stage of life & they needed the utmost care of their Mom, but God
had some other plan for her. The recovery was short-lived and it relapsed again
& flared up posing health hazards problems. Weakness gripped her &
painful chemotherapy sessions seemed difficult for her.



She deliberately tried to space out from the kids because
she knew that she won’t live long & at times she tried to be rude to them
so that they don’t go near her & may be she thought they wouldn’t miss when
she won’t be around. She was my elder sis-in-law & been a Mother I could well
understand her feelings, but with this ailment, She was still bold. Her old
parents were staying with her to take care of all. It was not so easy for them
too…but they were helpless…all could just hope for a miracle.
In six months’ time, she had to undergo numerous chemos, the
after effects were horrible. She had lost her appetite & elixir to live.
She wished to get rid of it and on 21st Dec.2002, she requested her
better half to stop the chemo sessions as she was not in a position to
withstand & relieve her from the unbearable pain once for all.
We all family members had reached as her condition was
deteriorating. She was admitted in hospital & she had shrinked to a mass of
flesh…I couldn’t hold my eyes on her…once a beauty with terrific personality
& this deadly disease had snatched away her beauty, she was writhing in pain
an unbearable sight. At late night, her condition worsens & the doctors
attending declared that she had reached a point of no return. All had gathered
around her, the concern was more of her old parents….what would be their
reaction …how will they accept this trauma…at late night, she breathed her last….on
unfortunate date 22nd Dec.2002. She couldn’t hold any longer…she was
relieved of the untiring misery which had taken each bit of her energy in a
span of one & half year. The old parents were dumb & they withstood the
tragedy…when God gives pain, he gives tolerance too to endure. The kids were
dumb & the most heart rending scene was when she was carried away in
sheet…the kids couldn’t bear the site and couldn’t hold them any further &
they broke down. I too was dumb…no words…no expressions…. & couldn’t
believe it but it was a fact. She left for heavenly abode…she was freed from
the sufferings but she left the kids & her hubby when she was needed the
most. Sometimes God ways are questionable, may be that was the destiny…&
she was destined to leave. Time doesn’t waits for anyone, now the kids are
grown up individuals & her hubby is holding top most rank in bank but still
her place is void in their house…all the comforts are there but she is not
there to enjoy…still she is missed !!

PS: In memory of my sis-in-law
© Ila Varma 2015



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