Tuesday, August 5, 2014


Now one more herculean task laid ahead to get approval from my PA, a tough job, I believed & Ashwin had to pursue….I didn’t had the guts to face him for this issue…I loved my father very much adored him for his skills but there was a hesitation between us….those days…fathers were strict with their children & they didn’t believe in maintaining friendly relations with the kids, they believed in the  adage, “SPARE THE ROD, SPOIL THE CHILD,” so a distance was maintained & fixing of marriage was totally on parents…& in Ashwin’s love I dared to cross the line…so now we had to be ready to face the consequences but I had blind faith on my love. He was quite matured & knew the tactics to deal people…this faith held me strong from within…Next Sunday a week after my visit to Ashwin’s place was predefined to meet my parents & I briefed my Mom of the plan & the whole episode of Ashwin’s place. She too was nervous but still tried to be cool to pacify my restlessness…We three waited for the D day, in the meantime my mother had discussed in front of Pa that my colleague was coming for lunch on coming Sunday.

My Mom prepared dishes of my choice as well as choice of Ashwin on Sunday. By 12 noon, Ashwin came down to our place & we all sat in living room. Pa was acquainted with him & they both talked for hours about his stay at States & his family details & other burning issues of society…we can say “Men talk” …I believe they were trying to get familiar with each other…At the time of lunch, Ma laid the table & asked all of us to join. We had lunch together….sumptuous lunch which invigorated the appetite. For me, the food prepared by Mom was my favorite. I believe most kids feel the same for their mothers…Ashwin too appreciated by mother’s culinary skills & said that his wishes was to enjoy food prepared by Mom…Squint eyed, I was eyeing my father’s reaction... he too joined in appreciation & added that he was fan of her, due to mastery in culinary skills…it was Mom’s day. Ashwin asked Pa to join him for a stroll at terrace…to ease him. Pa joined him & we too (mom & I) were downstairs with our heartbeats pounding in ribcage for the consequences after Ashwin’s proposal….There were utter silence in the house...our ears were on terrace that my Pa might get angry & burst out badly on Ashwin. But nothing of that sort was heard...I was praying to god …I believe after an hour they came downstairs & that hour appeared as an year to me...I was restless & Mom helpless…I drifted to my bedroom so that I couldn’t face my Pa…they both were cool & well composed ..I thought may be Ashwin have dropped the idea of discussion about marriage proposal…many questions rose in my minds & answers were also with me…I was totally puzzled…there was pin drop silence in house which I felt was indicative of some unknown fears…when I felt asleep I did not even know…At around four, Mom woke me up to have tea…Mom said that Ashwin had left after talking to Pa & papa was cool. No need to worry. He had not disclosed anything to her also….I went into the living room to have tea along. It was a routine exercise on weekends & on holidays…After tea, my father broke the silence & he enquired about my feelings for Ashwin & what all I knew of his descent, caste & creed etc…I told all the positive aspects of Ashwin but lied that I was ignorant about his caste & creed…He told me that he belonged from such caste where people are very orthodox & conservative & even females are not given so much privileges as we enjoyed in our Kayastha family…the feedback was detrimental but he did not hold any grudges against my love…he was convinced by Ashwin’s attitude that he was a nice guy with good values & will keep me happy…all girl’s parents seek the same from their son-in laws but simultaneously he informed that it was tough job to satiate his parents for this alliance & now the task laid ahead of Pa & Ashwin to ready his parents & they had discussed how to go over it to manage the blues & pacify for smooth relationship….anyway I was at ease from my parent’s side now...I now realized that the view that I held for my father was not true...though he was tough from outside but he was soft from inside…today I discovered another face of my father…his true self...a new facet of Pa of which I was ignorant of  or he hid under the armour…Mom & me exchanged glances & she cuddled me in her lap…the best place where I felt carefree. I feel all feel the same comfort in mother’s lap…Pa came to my side & took my face in his hands & caressed me…his eyes were filled with tears…a sentimental moment…a moment to be cherished till I breathe my last.

to be continued..... 

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