Sunday, December 14, 2014

EXPECTATIONS DO HURT...STILL YEARNING FOR IT...Y SO

I very well know that expectations hurt and it hurts a lot...still y am 
I heading in this direction....Why I want to hurt myself...numerous 

queries lies ahead of me...I am marching ahead to get myself 
wounded & will wound badly...I feel...that too in full 
consciousness...I have asked many to be beware of this awkward & 
I am myself retreating into it....it means at this point of time, I am
destined to meet the fate of pain...might be lucky that I gain instead 
of pain but chances are bleak...It is not that I am expecting a 
lot...just need kind attention & care that I need to make my journey
smooth and happy...few words that can balm my soul which has 
withered with tough days & a touch of care can mend my ways...I 
am not asking out of way....but in a short span of time, level of my
expectations has crossed the bar from a person who was completely 
unfamiliar to me for the reasons unknown but the level of approach 
that I met with made me weak & wary...in distress...sympathy is
taken as empathy...though I don't wish anyone to sympathize with 
me...each life faces distress at some point of time in life & when 
you don't complain for the good days then why to move back &
curse the fate for the hardship....we get wary at the minutes of 
hardships which seems like ages & we start measuring the hiccups 
in our journey which shows up to check your level of endurance &
adversity tests us to the core.
Many times I wonder why am I hurt at your ignorance though you 
haven't done it deliberately...you can't be there for me all the time 
which I have started nurturing in my soul...because you are not
supposed to be...you are on your duty & I agree you are 
performing well...it is none of your fault...it is the fault of my 
emotions which is taking toll of me & it might stand out to be 
better for me if I accept the challenge but I do have the fear of 
losing.
I long for a soft touch on my shoulder, a caress of care, few words 
of appreciation and encouragement which can work as wonder for 
me..Let the faith that  I hold in my eyes be maintained...be firm in 
approach but denial  hurts a lot...so let the faith stand & help me 
to share a happy bonding to regain myself and I am not distorted 
in any ways.
I am strong enough but still I need a hug to regain my self...

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