Saturday, August 2, 2014

SERIES OF ASHWIN-DIVYA: PART IV: WHEN INFATUATION TRANSFORMED INTO DEEP LOVE

When infatuation transformed into deep love…


I just can’t recall. In few meetings we were well versed with each other interests, habits, inhibitions…it seemed as if we knew each other since ages.
Ashwin was very senior to me in college…he was in final year of Master’s degree in Clinical Psychology and I was in first yr. of Graduation...it was a coincidence that I too planned to do Master’s in Child Psychology…our interest & subject was common between us which added sparks in   our relationship.
Life seemed more colourful than before I never knew that Love can do such wonders...I had read somewhere that falling in love makes one a poet and now I felt that there was much reality in these said words...the one who had expressed must have been in love...When I became 
"WE" 
we weren't aware of it...but we were enjoying each other company.
Ashwin completed his master’s degree and was ready to leave for States for further studies and research on his subject...I was happy that he completed his Masters but the mere imagination of living away from him send shivers down my spine...It was hard to imagine bcoz my world revolved around Ashwin ...He too felt the same & did not wished to leave but for carving a niche for his self in this world there was no choice left.
We never met outside college, because we did not wished that anybody talked about our relationship which would scar our companionship...we were more than friends but within limits...I would not mind accepting now that within me thousand & thousand times a desire... a craving aroused  for his close proximity, but there was a hesitation & inhibition  which held back  & maintained the sanctity of relationship...ours was a platonic relationship we shared each and everything but a respectable distance was maintained between us and it was predefined that after settlement, we would tie the knot with the blessings of all...



At college...people saw our relationship with questionable eyes, but we never gave them a chance to conclude that there was something between us...

The restlessness could not go unnoticed by My Mamma who knew well about our relationship, she encouraged to maintain the sanctity of relationship if we wished to go for long term..."Patience bears sweet fruits..,"she used to always say to boost my morale...
Ashwin used to come to college daily after his course was over just to meet me...he would wait for my classes to get over and it was a routine quorum.

As the D day was approaching near… it flared my anxiety and in these two years of relationship I felt as if we knew each other since ages. Still I vowed to myself not to get upset and my mission was to complete my graduation and further completing Masters. By the time I would be in Masters Degree, his research will be over and then we could enjoy our relationship forever lost in each other company…no excuses no barring’s....






to be continued..... 

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